There was once this YouTube group I enjoyed watching and they had a piece on something similar to today’s blog topic. Anyhow, I was just thinking this will be my last Sunday as an unmarried person (fingers crossed). So what does that mean? I was listening to a lot of podcasts today about people’s stories. I began to think what is going to be my story…
I just finished this story, lol. I’m looking forward to the next story. What’s your story? ATEN!!!
Is that from folding all the origami? Oh dear, I’m so sorry. I see you do a lot of them for tipping so I didn’t think it would do this to your finger.
ReplyDeleteMy story is, you may not see it but I often feel very lonely throughout this wedding prep process. It’s “how do I want you to dress, what do I want groomsmen to do, so now do I want you to do that”, it’s really not what I want but what I want that make people comfortable with as well. I’m lucky enough that you marry me so I can’t complain much, and I know you’re not interested at al in all this ceremony and church formality etc and I’m afraid to annoy you while I’m doing the preparation and that could make me feel worst. I almost yelled at Pauline today, and I held it, and I know how you feel when you have to yell at me. But I also hope you know how I feel too when that lady at Matt and Nha’s house snapped at you and you were quiet for the rest of the meeting after being yelled at by her. I hope we can understand each other’s perspective.
And since wedding/married is not your thing, kid is not your thing either, I afraid I will be even more lonely if I had a child with you. Wedding is just 1 day but kid you’re stuck with forever, and I see there is a high chance it will break us. I really need to think if I really want a child if I want a permanent relationship with you.
I was almost in tears the day my thieu nhi friends come for the meeting (day you pick up anna) and I can see how supportive they are with me with the wedding. I wonder if it’s because they’re too easy and not critical with me, or is it because you’re hard and critical of me.